The purpose of going for a bayaan is not for excitement, but the thing to see is what you gained from it. The idea is that when you come out from a program there must be determination to change one’s life, a feeling of remorse over the wrongs one had committed, and the realization that one needs to correct oneself. This type of introspection over one’s deeds and looking for a way to correct oneself is called tafaqqud. One is tafaqqud over others (i.e. inspecting other people’s actions and lives) and one is tafaqqud within one’s own self. Are you inspecting and observing yourself or not? This was the general trend in the past. When they found that there was something short in their aspirations then they would inspect their own deeds. We need to think to ourselves that why do we not find a consistent pattern in our deen, why are we going up and then dipping? Similarly why are feelings and thoughts of jealousy and pride overcoming me?